I don’t know about you, but I’m kind of an “out of the box” person. I’m quirky and I like things that way. Give me your weirdest moment and I’ll embrace it with a wide-tooth grin. Maybe it’s because I’m wired that way, or maybe it’s because of my past history, who knows?
Regardless, this “out of the box” tendency has caused me some issues. I mean some people have described me as “cute”, while another group of people have labeled me as “awkward”- I choose to hold onto the former.
Socially, it can be hard. But, even harder for me is when it comes down to me wanting to heal in certain areas of my life. Transparently, I’ve tried a lot of ways to heal. Some have worked and some have not worked (*I’ll dive into this in a later post*). I see the benefits in all of the healing modalities I have tried. Yet it breaks my heart when they don’t work, because I can get a lot of flack from others.
Here’s how some of the conversations go:
Them:”I guess you haven’t hit a low enough bottom.”
My thoughts: “You mean having brain lesions isn’t bad? Wait, where’s your compassion?”
Them: “When you become willing to do the work, you’ll get better.”
Me: “Whoa…I’m not going to even start by proving how much work I’ve done. We ARE NOT going there.”
People can be outright insensitive and that’s their choice, that’s their path. But, that’s just not how I do things. That’s not how I’m wired.
The really cool thing is that I actually did start to heal and in ways that some would consider “out of the box.” And, I’m so okay with that. Heck, I embrace that too.
So, now the conversation turns to you. Have you ever felt this way? Like things just weren’t working regarding getting better? No matter how much work, or effort you could muster up. If you’re still like whattheheck do I do, whatthenoodle is wrong with me!? Here are some things that might help you along this journey:
1. Pray – If you want to get well, begin praying. Whatever religious/spiritual convictions you have, just begin praying. There is something so powerful about it.
2. Be open-minded for new opportunities- Whatever you do hold onto hope that doors will open pertaining to your healing and recovery. The rights doors that are perfect for your situation.
3. Continue being honest – Friend, continue sharing your truth with safe people. Certain people may judge you, but the more you share your burden with someone else, the less pain you’ll be in.
4. Do your research – Since most of us have access to the internet these days, I highly suggest you use Google. There are so MANY resources and different treatment options. Get informed.
5. Choose recovery that sits well with you – there is no one-size fits all recovery for everyone and for me to claim that is ignorant. You see, we ALL have an internal guide that tells us what is right for us and what is wrong for us. Listen to that.
6. And, most importantly, be gentle on yourself- We all have our own paths to walk, have compassion for yourself, shower grace on the parts of you that are hurt.
Whomever you are, wherever you are, you are worth living a life that is vibrant, a life deeply grounded in freedom. Continue to pursue that.